A. K. U.

...........
Ga jadi kiamat.
Garing abis.
Mungkin kalo Suku Maya adalah seorang comic dan kiamat adalah jokenya, tanggal 22 Desember adalah bomnya.

But hey, the time has come anyway: HOLIDAY!! Everyone I knew has already got a plan for the next 2 weeks, including me! :D
I'm going to Jogjakarta tonight and will be back to Jakarta on 4th December; Alif is NOW in Switzerland, he's travelling in some countries in Europe, he's having his breakfast now :p ; Karel will go to Bali with his doi -sampe cari pinjeman polaroid dan akhirnya beli sendiri, I feel you bro-; Joke is going to Bromo! -I envy him much, I've always wanted to hike a mountain, and it's Bromo!-; and my best childhood buddy will explore the beauty of France and Switzerland! Can't get any more envy than this, those 2 countries are my favorites dream-destination!
And that's just what I remember, pasti masih banyaaaaakk lagi yang liburan kemana-mana fufufu

ANYWAY!
Jumat kemarin, tanggal 21 Desember 2012, XXIV baru saja menerima jabatan dari kakak-kakak XXIII. We are quite frightened yet super excited! This will not be easy but good things don't usually come easy, so I'm sure things are gonna be guhreaaaatt!
XXIV, sekarang kita sudah menjabat, I really hope we'll become closer and closer as a family. I love you guys, too much <3 p="p">

Just done my civic presentation task! Me so happy (and damn yes tired). But, my other side mind works quite well at night, so let me take 'em out.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I stare at my reflection in the mirrorWhy am I doing this to myself?Losing my mind on a tiny errorI nearly left the real me on the shelfNo, no, no, no, no
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the starsSeeing is deceiving, dreaming is believingIt's okay not to be okaySometimes it's hard to follow your heart
But tears don't mean you're losingEverybody's bruisingJust be true to who you are
Who you are, who you are, who you areWho you are, who you are, who you areWho you are, who you are, who you are
Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeahThe more I try the less it's working, yeah, yeah, yeah'Cause everything inside me screamsNo, no, no, no, no
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the starsSeeing is deceiving, dreaming is believingIt's okay not to be okaySometimes it's hard to follow your heart
But tears don't mean you're losingEverybody's bruisingThere's nothing wrong with who you are
Yes, no's, egos, fake shows like boomJust go and leave me aloneReal talk, real life, good luck, good nightWith a smile, that's my home, that's my home, noNo, no, no, no, no
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the starsSeeing is deceiving, dreaming is believingIt's okay not to be okaySometimes it's hard to follow your heart
But tears don't mean you're losingEverybody's bruisingJust be true to who you areYeah, yeah, yeah
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Dasar, manusia.

MARRY ME JULIET YOU'LL NEVER HAVE TO BE ALONE. I LOVE YOU AND THAT'S ALL I REALLY KNOW, I TALKED TO YOUR DAD GO PICK OUT A WHITE DRESS IT'S A LOVE STORY BABY SAY YESSS

That's just an intermezzo -padahal belom ada apa-apa wkwk- sedang apa nih guisee? Kalo gue sedang feel like being active nih, physically loh. Lagi senang bergeraak :3

Ohiya gue juga lagi seneng sama kimia hohoho karena materinya lagi gampang buat gue. I feel like increasing on Chemistry but unfortunately the same thing doesn't happen to Math. Tapi gue hari Jumat ulangan sel volta T__T bisa gak ya T__T But tomorrow's a day off! Maklumlah Indonesiaaaa, hari raya keagamaan dijadikan hari libur nasional, not that I'm complaining :p

Gue ngerasa berubah nih sejak kelas 11, physically and mentally. Physically, gue lebih gampang capek alias leto0o0y, tapi akhir-akhir ini juga gue seneng gerak, tapi tetep aja udah ga kuat kalo disuruh begadang sampe jam 11-__- umur masih segini tetapi mengapa otot-ototku sejompo ini ya Tuhaaaaannnn *ngais-ngais tanah*. Mentally? Gue ngerasa jaooooooohhhh lebih wise, kepedean? Bodo amat. Jujur bre. Terus intuisi gue makin jalan! Seneeeng xixixi. Terus gue udah menerapkan "write more, talk less" nich. Remember, 'talk' beda yew ama speak, and yes gue masih berbakat jadi editor rempong karena ke-OCD-an gue dalam hal tulis-menulis -dan jutaan hal lainnya-

Gue makin mantap dalam menerapkan mindfulness, biarpun menurut gue itu belum mantap. And it's proven itu sangat membantu gue dalam kehidupan yang rumit ini, sumpe. Dan itu meningkatkan daya ingat gue, jadi mayan lah gue jadi gak pikun-pikun anymore.

Oh yes, gue juga feel like taking risks. Jadi lebih 'bodo amat' sama reaksi orang, tapi bukan berarti gue ngapa-ngapain sesuka gue-__- jadi less-munafik lah pokoknya. Be true to myself before I tell others to.

And by posting this post to public I'm taking risk juga loh wkwk

HEY!! It's been quitee long since the last time I posted anything here. Beberapa hari, well it's been a week since I made my very personal so-called journal, lebih tepatnya tempat berlatih menulis sih hehe, is there any exact word for that? :)

Kyaa sok imut banget gue pake emote senyum, ew. Tapi gue emang lagi seneng banget aaaaaa. Gak, gue gak jadian T___T masih betah jomblo kok T__T. Lagi meresapi dan membenarkan kata Mas Saleh kalo apapun yang dijalankan atas dasar niat baik pasti selalu ada bantuan dan lantjaaar jaya kayak nama bis antar-kota, makanya gue sekarang setiap ragu ngambil langkah, langsung mikirin perkataan Mas Saleh. All hail Mas Saleh......

Gue lagi dibanjiri respek terhadap seseorang nih, ampundeh itu orang fufufu. Btw bener-bener minggu kemaren tuh minggu ujian banget, bukan aja, kesabaran saya diuji, kekerenan saya juga, d0h pokoknya my whole self (and body) lagi diuji deh. But in the end (of the week, literally) semuanya paid off :") Bersyukuuurrr punya keluarga kedua yang baik banget, gak terdeskripsikan deh baiknya, yang selalu boosts my mood anytime. Akoh sayang Paskibra Dharmawangsa dan seluruh unsur-unsurnya :"""

Kenapa jadi menye-menye gini, ini semua gara-gara redoks featuring The Script.

That's IT. Gue daritadi ngerjain makalah remed PKn gak konsen karena abis nonton Perahu Kertas 2 fufufu T___T. As the reader, I'm...... not so impressed BUT as the audience, that shit cray. No I mean the movie KILLED IT. Gue suka banget teknik pengambilan gambarnya biarpun gue gak ngerti apapun tentang itu, tapi bagus :") dan masya Tuhan, scoringnya indah sekaliiii :"""""")

DAN KALO ADA MTV MOVIE AWARDS DI INDONESIA, gue yakin pasti I'm sure Reza Rahadian and Elyzia Mulachela would win the Scene Stealer awards. They did it magnificently, dan at some point, I'm more interested with them, not the main characters.


...........dan gue masih terbayang-bayang Remi. Iye. Sampe sekarang. Makanya gue ngeblog karena ga bisa konsen sambil ngerjain PKn-_-. Eh, Remi apa Reza Rahadian-nya yaaaaaa hwhwhw jadi maloe :3

Anjrit. Masih sedihhhh pas Remi balikin buku dongengnya ke Kugy. Haaaa won't be able to move on from this for the next few days, I guess.

Ya Allah, cariin Remi-nya saya ya Allah.





*n.b. kalo bisa yang mirip Reza Rahadian, ya Allah.

Duh. Gue tiba-tiba kangen SMP. Jaman-jaman gue masih amat sangat teramat alay................... dan naif. Tapi gue nyengir2 jijik sendiri loh abis liat2 timeline facebook gue hahahaha. Miris juga sih sebenernya-__-

Gak tau kenapa nih gue tiba-tiba jenuuuhhh bgt sama kegiatan gue yang gue rasa tuh itu-itu doang. Padahal sebenernya kegiatan gue gak dikit-dikit amat kok. Kayaknya gue udah sampe di titik kejenuhan hidup gue deh #tsahh. But is it even possible to get to this point at age 15? Gue butuh kegiatan baruuuuu T___T
Gue ngerasa terkekang banget padahal gak ada yang mengekang gue. Gue kangen masa belajar XI IPA E. Gue kangen X-D. Kangen semuanyaaaaaahhh, when nobody cared about society, when nobody did something to be called as cool kid, when everybody did what they wanted....


................then I realized people are just growing up. Gak ada yang salah dengan segala hal itu, tapi jenuh gak sih ketika keseharian lo dikelilingi hal-hal yang dangkal? Makin dewasa bukannya makin jujur, tapi malah makin banyak kepura-kepuraan, drama, dan hal-hal gak penting lainnya. Plisdeh. NOT that I never did any of those things, just sayin. Gue kangeeeenn banget temen-temen 'gak nyata' gue yang dulu, kangenn cerita-cerita kayak anak kecil, but then I think they're growing up, too. And you, I hope you read this.

"...tapi di planet bernama Realitas ini, begitu aturan mainnya." -Perahu Kertas.

Beginilah adanya. Realitas. Hanya bisa melaju mengikuti arus, menanti apa yang Semesta pilih untuk kita, atau diam, terbawa mundur, terjebak di masa lalu dan gak ada gunanya.




It's fascinating what discussing-with-my-mind can bring. It calms me. It's much better than discussing with any kind of real person. Because in the end it's you that find the way out, not anyone else. And nothing's better than your own way, at least for you. Thank you, the great mind of mine.

Kenapa ya gue selalu ada mood untuk nge-post pas malem-malem sebelum tidur? Anyone?
Tapi apalah arti waktu ya, yang penting kan posts-nya bagus xixixi

This. Is. My. Current. Obsession. Dammit. I first read the book when I was an 8th grader, back in 2010... I guess? I DECLARED I FELL IN LOVE WITH THAT BOOK RIGHT AFTER I FINISHED READING IT. The book tells about Kugy, a fairytale writer; Keenan, an artist; and what's going on between them and people around them. It's pretty complicated, tapi magically gak terlihat dipaksakan sehingga terlihat seperti universe makes them to, and it turns out beautifully. The pain feels so real that you feel it to, gue bukan pembaca lebay yang baca novel sedih dikit mewek. And I cried when I read this.

And on early 2012, the author announced there will be a movie based on this holy novel. I screamed tons of excitement!! Months passed, and it's official, it'd be released on August 16 2012. I PLANNED to watched the movie on that day, but, Universe seems to hate me because I was sick that day. Shit. And until this post is posted, I haven't watched the movie.

BUT CALM DOWN, PIPOL. Dee parted the movies into 2 beautiful parts! I really have to watch the 2nd part -which the gala premiere is TODAY- or I have to kms. You can watch the trailers on youtube, just search 'Perahu Kertas trailer' and click on whatever you want.

I AM IN LOVE WITH THE SOUNDTRACK, it's 'Perahu Kertas' by the amazing Maudy Ayunda. She actedas Kugy, while Keenan is portrayed by Adipati Dolken. "Nothing can beat the readers' imagination." -Dee. Yes, I agree with her. But the cast are pwetty close to perfection, and so is the 1st part of the movie (based on the reviews) and the 2nd part hopefully.



Nus, tunggu saya ya untuk ke pelabuhan terdekat.

Di malam yang sesunyi ini...... aku sendiri gue malah update blog, bukannya belajar mtk atau pkn. Sama sekali. Samsek. 0 besar. Soalnya kalo 0 kecil belum belajar berhitung. Apasih.

Besok UTS cyin, gue seneng deh kalo minggu UTS. Gak ada PR/tugas, pulangnya lebih cepet, masuknya lebih lama, apalagi UTS kali ini gue ada libur sehari! Woohooo udah mulai ngerasain enaknya paketan gini.

Gue tiba-tiba baru nyadar kalo gue (dan jutaan orang lainnya, hopefully) being pretty norak pas SMP. Nih, jadi kan kelas gue pas SMP kan 3 tahun bersama kan, nah pas kelas 7 kelas gue tuh diundang ke 78 buat memperingati apaaaa gitu, nah alatnya si Echa, si Flooding Machine or something gitulah namanya juga diundang! Kita sekelas mejeng deh tuh di parkiran 78. TERUS kakak-kakaknya tuh pada ngeliatin alatnya gitu kan -yang cowok- dan anak-anak cewe kelas gue tuh langsung norak....
"Ciee Echa!!"
"Cieh Echa dikerubungin aaaa"
"Tanda cemburu looh"
........dan lain-lain.

d0h ngantuk nih gue abis pulang dari kondangan. Huhuhu. Eh betewe tadi gue ketemu Rana sama Vira disana! Hahahah, gue kira Rana ga ikut, dia kan anak rumahan gitu deh :( Daaaannn gue ketemu berjuta manusia Blok C lainnya. Seruuuww deh!

BBM-an dulu yaaaa <3 p="p">

Hoi. Sedang mencoba mewujudkan ngeblog-anytime-anywhere nih.

Gue tadi nyoba bikin meringue cookies gitu, nemu resep yang meyakinkan di internet. Gue sampe bela-belain ke Giant buat beli segala kekurangan di siang bolong :"""
Pas mixing gitu2 sih gue mikirnya "Gampang juga nih, kok nyokap gue bisa sampe ga bisa gitu ya? Asik dong udah jago gue." Terusss adonannya gue warnain ungu karena gue ga suka ST12 :-)

Masukkin ke oven deh! Gue rada shocked gitu diovennya satu setengah jam, padahal kue2 lain yang biasanya gue masak tuh cuma 15-30 menit gitu deh. Yoweslah gue nyantai-nyantai depan pc.

30 menit kemudian.....
"Kak! Kuenya nih, urusin dong!" tiba-tiba nyokap berseru (cieh berseru) dari dapur. "Kue kamu nih masa browning gini!" lanjut doi. Gue cuman mikir "Alah apaan sih paling cuman bawahnya gitu, normal laah" terus akhirnya gue iyain doang.

5 menit kemudian......
"Kaaakkk urusin dong tuh kuenya udah bau gitu" nyokap teriak, lagi. Akhirnya gue kepo dan merelakan hidup ansos gue untuk sementara buat ngecek kuenya. Gue buka ovennya........... dan kue gosong cokelat dengan indahnya. Actually, by 'browning' my mom meant it became REAL brown. Warnanya udah gak ungu lagi. Hix. Broken-hearted gitu deh gue.
Tapiiiii pas gue cobain kuenya enak! Emang cuman bawahnya gitu yang gosong sampe item pekat kayak pake Caran d'Ache. Terus emang melted gitu di mulut. Yasudahlah......mungkin emang gue gak berbakat bikin kue unyu-unyu gitu.....

ETAPI gue besok mau bikin macarons nyet! Gimana dong??? Macarons kan kue ter-chantique gitu....... Taela.

Berdoa aja deh gue fufufufufu.




*p.s. Gue masih gak bisa bikin judul.

BAIDEWEI gue udah gak tau apa kabar diary gue loh! Hahahaha

Themes buat blogger yang bagus dan gratis tuh nyarinya dimana ciiii?

SUDAH LAMA YA SAYA TIDAK BERSUA DISINI. SEKALINYA MUNCUL TERIAK-TERIAK.
Haha.

Gue abis baca-baca blognya Milla! Hahah gue nyengir2 sendiri bacanya, lagian siapa suruh punya blog lucu amat. Terus jadi kepikiran pengen sering update blog anytime anywhere gitu..... Terus gue terinspirasi pengen bikin target-target buat diketawain nanti!

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Gue kayaknya bukan jenis orang yang punya target deh T____T

Besok UTS kimia DAN ulangan logika matematika. Mati aja dech w. Bu Nurjanah lagian kenapa MT gitu sama guru yang lain sampe UTS duluan, jangan ngikutin anak muridnya ah Bu.

BTW gue seneng banget sama kelas gue hari ini!! Tadi main orang miskin-orang kaya sama tak jongkok! Mainnya di lapangan pula jadi puaaaaaaass kya kyaaa, ya biarpun gak semuanya ikutan sih h3h3. Terus kata temen gue yang dikelas lain, suara anak kelas gue tuh kedengeran sampe ke 304 -..- Sayang bungut deeh sama IPA E *emot peluk tapi gak mau yang kayak Softex*

Ngumpulin niat buat belajar kimia dulu yaa!

Gue sedang mengalami kegelisahan yang berkecamuk di hati gue tentang haruskah gue lebih memilih diary atau blog gue. Such a hard choice. Tapi serius....

1. Blog enak, it slowly but sure develops your writing skill, karena yang baca adalah publik alias orang-orang banyak sehingga gueh diharuskan menulis dengan bahasa yang cool dan gak N@iK tUruN atau p@k3 4ut0t3xT y9 bKiin c4k3eDh Ma7@. I spent about 5 minutes just to write that sentence fyi.
    Enaknya blog lagi adalah perasaan seneng ketika lo ngeliat curhatan-curhatan ampas lo ternyata dibaca orang-orang dan mereka (terlihat) senang! Happiness is nothing if you have no one to share it with.
    Gak perlu capek nulis pake pulpen atau pensil, hence gue gak harus ngeliat deket2 ke bukunya soalnya gue kebiasaan kalo nulis selalu jarak mata-buku 10 cm gitu pdhl udah pake kacamata huhu :""
    Gue bisa promote social networking account gue! Kayak Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, atau lain-lain (HEHE). biarpun kalo yang keseringan kesannya jadi annoying/kebelet eksis gitu sih h3h3. Yeah, that's why everything should be done in balance! :)
   Let people know more about us! Siapa tahu orang-orang tertentu alias judges yang suka ngomongin lo dari belakang malah jadi temen lo setelah baca isi blog lo yang asik, lucu, dan cerdas gak kayak yang selama ini dia kira. Asal jangan sampe bikin orang-orang salah persepsi tentang lo cuman gara2 some posts.
   Belajar tentang masyarakat, broh. Secara perlahan lo akan mengenal mana yang disukai dan mana yang tidak. Contoh: masang MixPod di blog. Awalnya lo suka-suka aja, tapi setelah beberapa visitors blog lo complain about that, you learn that not everyone can be pleased. It's your choice to remove it or let it stay.
   Lo jadi jago coding gitu! Yeah biarpun masih 100000x lebih cetek daripada hackers or others, but still, it improves your skill. Gue aja jadi lumayan ngerti ngutak-ngatik gitu, tadinya clueless! XD
   Tapi kelebihan tervital blog sebenernya juga kelemahannya; publisitas. You just can't post everything publicly that happens in your life. No matter how open that person is, the one thing he'll always need is some privacy. Lagipula, posting semua-semuanya di social networking account (gak cuma blog!) terlihat... kurang etis.

Nomer 2-nya lanjutin besok ya! :-D

Hi! Gue gak tau mau ngetik apa, as usual.

Aaaaaa sumpah gue kangen ngeblog huhu :" You know, I've had this urge to update my life since weeks ago but that's it, laziness struck and always won. But besides that cliché-laziness-reason, I of course have another; I have your replacement. A new diary of mine. Freshly bought from a handsome, cool, but-shorter-than-me senior of mine. *Spongebob Squarepants' sad song playing*

Sekarang lagi di rumah Rana, sama-sama lagi pengen tobat dan menyucikan blog yang dulu penuh akan noda #yea. BTW besok gue nonton konser @78yc! But this scumbag friend of mine who's sitting beside me sadly said that she can't go with me and Jasmine tomorrow because of an only-bestfriends-know reason.

Gue baru nyadar I have no peningkatan dalam tulis-menulis blog, kualitas maupun kuantitas. Sumpah. I think the problem is because gue sering dapet urge dan inspirasi bust ngeblog kalo lagi di kamar mandi atau lagi tidur, dan gue sayangnya gak bisa ngeblog sambil boker atau ngeblog dalem mimpi dan keposting beneran.

Selain this blogging problem, I (OF COURSE) have another problem; money. Please, gue sangat-sangat tidak bercanda ketika lo denger gue butuh hujan uang kertas seratus ribuan depan gue sekarang juga, banjir juga gak papa. Anyway God, I fucking hate auto-corrects.

Sesungguhnya ku tak rela jika kau tetap bersama dirinya hal yang lebih menyebalkan dari manusia-kepo-gak-tahu-sikon adalah auto-corrects. Please, gue orang Indonesia and I know what I'm typing you sok English idiot laptop.

Anyway, bentar lagi bagi rapot dan ngisi KRS! *pura-pura seneng* Gak mau pisah banget nih sama X-D. Udah terlalu pewe, jago futsal pula. Gue, kali ini, gak peduli kalo dibilang 'terlalu tenggelam dalam comfort zone' , bodo amaaaaat, I've gone out from my comfort zone a lot lately.

Kenapa post ini dibilang 'bersih-bersih'? Yeah, seperti yang gue bilang tadi, membersihkan blog yang ternodai dan menyapu sarang laba-laba yang bisa dibilang udah jadi perkampungan di blog gue ini. Karena namanya bersih-bersih, segini dulu aja. Assalamualaikum :) #pencitraan #teteup

People say we start our life when we step out of our comfort zone. If so, then I'm just starting to step out of my comfort zone. Hahah, I just realized how cowardly I've been for years, never dared to come out, even a bit of my comfort zone. Pffffttt, just wish me luck!

Saya rindu menumpahkan perasaan disini..... dengan jujur.